Some of my Poetry

Well here is a poem that I wrote a while ago and I figured I'd share then with you guys, so I hope ya'll enjoy it:

Title: I use to believe in second chances

My love always seemed like one big game to you,

and I can't win no matter what I do,

I loved you and meant it,

but even I have my limit and it seems I've reached it,

I can't do this any more and I won't,

You said you meant it but I know you still don't,

You never did and you never will,

All I know to do now is deal,

Deal with the shame of my own stupidity,

For letting you back in after what you did to me,

I hate myself for taking you back,

But I hate you more for the love you lacked,

I showed you me and got nothing back,

You are drowning me now with my own memories,

I hate you for what you did and everything you do now,

I hate myself for the chance I offered you and what I had allowed,

I don't know what to make of what we were or what we became,

I don't know how I didn't notice that you really hadn't changed,

I guess I can blame myself but nothing will help,

But I want you to know that you're not the reason I wanted to kill myself,

I was going through a really hard time,

You were suppose to be there for me that night,

But instead you turned your back on me without a second glance,

After I was the one who had to give you the second chance,

I knew all along I was being naive,

And at any given moment you could turn around and do the same thing to me,

But I gave you the benefit of a doubt,

Even though I should have told you to get the fuck out,

I want you to know what I feel about the way you treated me,

But instead I'm letting it go so that it doesn't break me,

I'll be the better person just like I always am,

And you'll be the miserable one in the end.